You try to do the right thing, but only when it works out in your favor anyway. You're not exactly evil or without ethics, but you could be going down a pretty dark path. You probably have good intentions. You've just gotten comfortable with acting the way you do. Knowing the difference between good and bad is half the battle. Acting like a good person is the hard part.
You are also probably: A bit jaded and cynical about life's rules
Right now you are on track to being: A petty criminal
To be a better person: Help a friend in need, without being asked
Well Cosmo (my car) has a secret admirer. Okay... so not-so-secret... an insanely jealous admirer. A noisy miner. Yes folks; a bird has fallen in love with my car. It'd been hanging around my car for a while, without much trouble. See?
Now he's started to get protective of his new love. He tries to rip my eyes out whenever I try to get into the car; it makes unlocking the door lots of fun. Yes, I've thrown things at him - a baseball, basketball and a newspaper. Stupid bird. Want to know how I know he's in love with my car? Apart from being overprotective of Cosmo, he sits there on the windscreen gazing at his reflection and cooing at what he thinks is another bird. So I've called him Narcissus. Oh well, I'll cope. To tell the truth, I think it's kinda cute, so I'll just let him be.
Anyways, seeing 'Dear Life' tonight at the Excelsior then jetting to Kara's party... HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARA! It's gonna be nice to catch up with everyone :P Seeyas there!
For years political scientists have been predicting the decline of the US but it didn’t happen and isn’t bloody likely to happen any time soon. The US has defense treaties with more than 50 countries - so it would appear that the most common would view is that the U.S. is the ‘Big Brother’ in the global family. The American military would be the last line of defense if a country was attacked by an aggressive neighbour. That’s why terrorism has (According to media PR) ‘blossomed’. Terrorism is the weapon of the militaristically weak. The reason why terror attacks were first directed at the US is because no country on God’s green Earth can challege the US militarily.
It begs the question though - am I the only person who wonders if, ironically, the US inadvertedly brought this upon themselves? (There’s not much they could have done about it even if this were true, unfortunately…) Apparently I’m not the only one. I mean I hear people explaining the Al-Quaida attacks by ”Oh it’s the muslim extremists taking offence to our way of life!” but as a world superpower, wouldn’t that make them a target for those wishing to move up in the world?Ironically, whilst America increases it’s strangle-hold on the global community, it’s popularity is suffering dramatically. Even three of America’s closest allies (Turkey, Pakistan and Jordan) have populations where only about 1/5th of people view the U.S. positively.I’ve heard 3 explanations for this:
1 - It’s a temporary thing revoloving around the image of George Bush and the War in Iraq.
2 - It’s a predicable/understandable response stemming from the apparent ‘global arrogance’ that the U.S. exhibits when making international policy decisions while failing to address obvious unresolved problems that the world faces. (i.e. Climate Change, 3rd World Poverty etc)
3 - It’s a view not the fault of the U.S. but of people who criticise and disagree with it. Anti-Americanism has blossomed ever since he Vietnam and Korean wars. Anti-Americanists feel that every problem in the world is the fault of America. (To a certain extent) This is sometimes justified by media that arrives in other countries of- for example - rediculous lawsuits or racist displays. Some critics argue that Anti-Americanism will be outlived by America just as it outlived Nazism and Communism.
Personally, I feel that it’s the control that the U.S. has over the rest of the world that causes it’s negative image. Just as the negative image that students have of their teachers or principals, it’s a dislike of ‘the Man’ - people in charge. No matter what those in charge do, there will always be people who don’t like their decisions - then the opinion spreads to others until it becomes the dominant view. For example; the Australian Prime Minister John Howard. Ask any Australian and they will tell you how much they dislike him due to his IR laws, or the GST or his international policy… but consider this; he must have been liked at some time because he was elected in the first place, wasn’t he? The larger the control, then the more people who are dissatisfied with the way things are being run.
For years political scientists have been predicting the decline of the US but it didn’t happen and isn’t bloody likely to happen any time soon. The US has defense treaties with more than 50 countries - so it would appear that the most common would view is that the U.S. is the ‘Big Brother’ in the global family. The American military would be the last line of defense if a country was attacked by an aggressive neighbour. That’s why terrorism has (According to media PR) ‘blossomed’. Terrorism is the weapon of the militaristically weak. The reason why terror attacks were first directed at the US is because no country on God’s green Earth can challege the US militarily.
It begs the question though - am I the only person who wonders if, ironically, the US inadvertedly brought this upon themselves? (There’s not much they could have done about it even if this were true, unfortunately…) Apparently I’m not the only one. I mean I hear people explaining the Al-Quaida attacks by ”Oh it’s the muslim extremists taking offence to our way of life!” but as a world superpower, wouldn’t that make them a target for those wishing to move up in the world?Ironically, whilst America increases it’s strangle-hold on the global community, it’s popularity is suffering dramatically. Even three of America’s closest allies (Turkey, Pakistan and Jordan) have populations where only about 1/5th of people view the U.S. positively.I’ve heard 3 explanations for this:
1 - It’s a temporary thing revoloving around the image of George Bush and the War in Iraq.
2 - It’s a predicable/understandable response stemming from the apparent ‘global arrogance’ that the U.S. exhibits when making international policy decisions while failing to address obvious unresolved problems that the world faces. (i.e. Climate Change, 3rd World Poverty etc)
3 - It’s a view not the fault of the U.S. but of people who criticise and disagree with it. Anti-Americanism has blossomed ever since he Vietnam and Korean wars. Anti-Americanists feel that every problem in the world is the fault of America. (To a certain extent) This is sometimes justified by media that arrives in other countries of- for example - rediculous lawsuits or racist displays. Some critics argue that Anti-Americanism will be outlived by America just as it outlived Nazism and Communism.
Personally, I feel that it’s the control that the U.S. has over the rest of the world that causes it’s negative image. Just as the negative image that students have of their teachers or principals, it’s a dislike of ‘the Man’ - people in charge. No matter what those in charge do, there will always be people who don’t like their decisions - then the opinion spreads to others until it becomes the dominant view. For example; the Australian Prime Minister John Howard. Ask any Australian and they will tell you how much they dislike him due to his IR laws, or the GST or his international policy… but consider this; he must have been liked at some time because he was elected in the first place, wasn’t he? The larger the control, then the more people who are dissatisfied with the way things are being run.
The question is; is the U.S. responding to it the ‘right’ way?
Society today; One big frigging technocratic, hegemonic, self-regulating, consumer-driven joke.
The most powerful country in the world is ruled by a guy who saw a map of Brazil and exclaimed “Wow! Brazil is big!” and the majority of celebrities are in jail because they discovered that they are in fact not immune to the effects of alcohol and automobiles.
Why does this not disappoint me so? The questions are stupid... who cares how many times a senator can be re-elected?
Anyways, Melbourne was fun. No really, dispite the domestic with Jo, I really did have fun. Anyone going down should DEFINATELY stay for a bit at the Greenhouse Backpacker. $40 a night (including a $10 key deposit that is returned to you) and FREE PANCAKES FOR BREAKFAST ON SUNDAY MORNINGS! haha they have heaps of free stuff to do as well like pub crawls and stuff. It's not seedy either. Very modern and clean! I have money. Hall-e-fucking-ujah! It's so nice to be able to pay for my petrol... except when I lost my wallet. I have to go to the bank to get money out cause my keycard was in it. Oh well. Forced savings plan I guess.
Everything as going perfectly; two jobs working harmoniously with uni, I had money to pay for the petrol for my new car... my birthday is on Saturday and my parents got me exactly what I wanted, I could actually AFFORD the flight down to Melbourne this weekend... Everything was perfect. Everything was TOO perfect. I mean I was walking around waiting for everything to blow up in my face. JUST when I stopped being so pessimistic; my wallet disappears. My licence - also ID for the flight, my piercings (including the one I only just bought for the 2nd time that I need for work), my Medicare card, my student card, my keycard (providing me with MONEY whilst I'm in VIC) and library cards, layby cards etc etc Fuck. Big. Fat. FUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!! I CANNOT FUCKING AFFORD THIS!!! The last 6 months of my life have been HELL! Don't I deserve a little fucking relief? No. Apparently not. I'm not allowed to be happy; it'd be against the rules of the cosmic universe. It's not like it's kharma or anything; I'm a nice person. Too nice sometimes... so why is EVERYTHING going wrong? Job, parents, car, relationship... I mean I've booked myself in for a pap smear in July cause my aunt and cousin have had cervical cancer... knowing my luck I'll have some advanced stage that's fucking untreatable and I'll die a fucking painful death! Dad told me that God sends these little things to test us; what's he testing, my SANITY?!?? I. AM. GOING. TO. GO. INSANE!!!!!
Reminder peoples. (haha I'm just doing this to be annoying) My house from 6:30-7ish. Bring friends... be merry. Drink... dress in green... don't trash my house! lol For more information contact me!
There will be Guitar Hero!!! (lol I'm learning...) On another note:
The Part of You That No One Sees
You are aloof, mysterious, and distant. People feel like they really don't know the true you... Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.
Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself. It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose. You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.
Been thinking a lot lately: My children will be called Dorian and Lilly. My wedding dress with DEFINATELY be strapless and lacy/frilly at the bottom. I want "Memories" by Within Temptation and "One more day" by Sinead O'Conner played at my funeral. My house will have more than one floor and have floorboards. I WILL learn the guitar in the next year. I'm going to live where it's green and full of trees. Almost rainforesty.
Seriously. To pay off my tiny debts and cover the cost of keeping my car on the road I'm starting two jobs on top of Uni, FAME! Rehearsals, Bible study and church... not to mention the various parties I got to AND THE MARDI GRAS IS THIS SATURDAY!!!!! What the fuck kind of world is it where a uni student's parents earn $97 grand a year, yet are so broke they live from paycheck to paycheck (meaning I had to hock my stuff for the money for Valentines Day dinner), I can't afford to get lined books to write on at uni, I can't afford my textbooks, I can't afford hair dye, I can't afford me eyeliner (I'm down to a 1cm stub), I can't afford new clothes; even though I'm shirnking and they're nearly all too big for me... and on top of that I can't get welfare payments because my parents earn too much. WTF??? Obviously if they're in that much debt they're not earning enough! And now that I'm having to have 2 jobs whilst undertaking study, I'm basically self-supporting... but I still can't get payments because I still live at home. Oh and I think my Ratty has a respiratory infection. When I go home from rehearsals tonight he was sneezing excessively and wheezing - which are both symptoms. Respiratory infections can lead to pneumonia or lung cancer - meaning DEATH!!! I'm so scared that he's going to be dead when I wake up tomorrow. I'm going to skip my lecture tomorrow morning so I can take him to the vet ASAP and get some antibiotics. He means the world to me, my little furball :( On a lighter note I will have money from the middle of next week. WOOT!!! $40 to matt's friend who did my brakes about 6 months ago (eek) and $80 to cover the VIP card at uni which will give me a discount on my texbooks. The rest will be for petrol... hopefully there'll be some left over :) AND I've discovered the addictiveness of Fractal Art. I downloaded Apophysis out of curiosity and made this:
Ooh... pretty! 4 seperate flames (patterns) put together in PhotoImpact.
If your life was a movie, what would the soundtrack be? So, here's how it works: 1. Open your library (iTunes, winamp, media player, iPod, etc) 2. Put it on shuffle. 3. Press play. 4. For every question, type the song that's playing. 5. When you go to a new question, press the next button. 6. Be honest, even if you're embarrassed to have the song or it doesn't fit.
Birth Of A Child: "Push it" - Garbage (haha pushing for the baby, and the fact I'll be dealing with an angry hormonal teenager in a few years time... lol!)
Sex: "Angel of Mine" - Evanescence (oooh, 'You are everything I need to say...' such a perfect song for tender sex :P)
Final Battle: "Center of the Universe" - Kamelot (Such good battle music!!! My soundtrack rocks!)
Death Scene: "One more day" - Sinead O'Conner (Wow. Very fitting)
Well it's come around to that time of year again where I have to start thinking about my birthday... again. Somehow this year I don't like the idea of getting older. It just reminds me of how little I've managed to accomplish since last year. So anyways, I was thinking of a pub crawl on one of those buses, where they do all the work and all we do is drink. Sounds like fun. However, the catch is that it'll cost $65 per person with a minimum of 20 people, my parents are going to pay for me (duh) but not everyone else (duh). So the question is how much does everyone love me? :) Or then there's the simple everyone-turn-up-at-my-house-and-get-drunk-cause-I'm-turning-nineteen party. Which would be BYO, dinner provided for free (yes free... pizza, chips and other small foodstuffs) and maybe the chance of drinking games from my clothesline again... Whichever...
So, jobland is still refusing me entry. Job application count is now 11. I'm starting to get a leeetle nervous cause christmas is coming up and everything... Anyways, I've been killing my time by beading christmas decorations that look totally AWESOME! (Thankyous extended to matt's mum and sister-in-law for teaching me), sunbaking (I look like a chocolate statue from the front, tomato by the back) and playing WoW.
Yes. World of Warcraft. Never again shall I join the popular kids... haha. Nah really, it's not that bad.
So... I've started writing again (after how many months?) I counted my stuff again and it's still at the 109-unfinished mark. I've decided I'm going to publish a few Ebooks to try and make a little money... try. I'll post the links on here in the future.
Have to choose my subjects for uni soon - not particularly sure of what I want to major in, let alone do next semester... oh well. Oh yeah, I dyed my hair black last week. It looks a lot more mature than the fushia pink that it has been since April. I'm going to invest in some more purple hair extensions when I have the money so it's not completely black.
So of course in my boredom I have resolved to cosplay as a Night Elf at the next Supanova... or whatever is closest to the time I finish my costume. Yes. That is a Night Elf. I will be wearing a little more though. Anyways, I guess it's worth a try.
Well nothing interesting going on much. Up to Forresters Beach to look at an investment property that Matt wants to buy, so there'll be beach/swimming action on Sunday. STILL haven't got christmas presents yet. I think I have one part of Matt's present... and don't even get me started on christmas cards. Not to mention that I still don't have a job. I've applied for about 9 jobs and I called them a week after I applied to find out what's going on. It's now been two weeks and I think it's time to call again. Satyricon gig coming up in December. Though when I can't remember.
You are Strength
Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.
This is a card of courage and energy. It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it. Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot, which might be why, in some decks, it is Justice that is card 8 instead of Strength. With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
I quit my job at Lux about 3 weeks ago. Long story short - me and my shift manager don't get on and I DON'T like it when I get yelled at in front of customers. Have an interview for Nightfill and Liquor attendant at a new Woolies opening in Mittagong on Wednesday. Also going to the square to distribute my resume on Thursday. I picked a good time to quit. Christmas casuals all around!
The weekend before last I went to GIGANTOUR - Caliban, Arch Enemy, Soulfly with Megadeath headlining. Copped a massive blow to the head when I contacted with the guy in front of me in the mosh pit. Forehead + back of head = ow. I was still a bit dizzy after I blinked all the stars out of my eyes, but kept on headbanging. I'm such a trooper.
Last weekend was Ruku's party, so Matt went as a pirate and I was his wench. Costumes were a bargain! 30 bucks from Sparty's. They had this really awesome witch's costume, but I liked the wench one a tiny bit more. Got there at about 11pm cause Matt had to do his tax, but it was all good. Corinne, I wanted to *steal* your costume!
Movie day with Sarah on Thursday, so we'll be vegging it out. Will be fun!
I think that's everything up till now... 1 day till All Hallows Eve!
bored
happy
artistic
aggravated
awake
giggly
contemplative
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